The thing about being Autistic, I think, that can be really detrimental to living a functioning adult life, is that we believe a lot of what we’ve been taught.
Think back to all those posters on the walls at your schools. Think about all those heroes they made us read about, so that we could learn to cultivate all those virtues “they” wanted us to all have. We were supposed to be honest, hardworking, and compassionate. We were supposed to save the world!
But, as we Autistics have found, we aren’t really supposed to be too honest. Being too honest doesn’t work out so well for us.
A lot of people can hang out at the water cooler (literally and metaphorically) all day long, and yet they seem to get ahead at work.
And when you give so much that it hurts, all that happens is you’re hurt. There is no reward.
And yes, it’s all possible for all this suffering we go through on this earth to be rewarded in the afterlife, but we see so many people flagrantly ignoring the rules we were overtly taught and internalized, and they do, in fact, get ahead on this earth.
If they meant that honesty, diligence, and compassion would mean not a danged thing now, but might or might not in the afterlife (if it exists), why the heck didn’t they just say that?