I blogged earlier about a rule I’m learning from watching Survivor: that people do, in fact, put themselves first.
I had a conversation with my trusted mentor, in the wake of leaving my principalship early. I had remembered that he used to teach in public schools, himself. Here’s a little of what I learned.
Put Your Own Family First
The thing about vocations is that we have potentially many. We have the one where we’re a nun, a monk, a priest, a wife, a mother, a husband, a father, a consecrated virgin, or whatever. There’s that one. And there’s also the one where we hopefully align our job to what we’re called to do for our work.
I have been living my life as if I were called to the sisterhood, yet living as a wife and mother. That’s a no go.
Instead, because I have more degree combinations than my husband and the greatest likelihood of lucrative employment, I am called to be the primary breadwinner. When I carry the health insurance, traditionally, we have had good insurance. When he carries it, it is not great and we pay out a lot for a very little.
I typically also make more money than my husband. When I was at the university, I carried professor-like health insurance for me and my family. I put that job with two other jobs and made more than he did. It’s almost always been that way in my marriage.
This time, I put all the eggs in one low-paying, no insurance basket. My retirement is now almost gone, and we got taxed substantially because we had to pull money from it. We are spinning around in circles financially because I took this risk.
The risk I took made sense if my family vocation was that of nun. I’m not a nun. I’m a wife and mother.
My mentor talked about how hard it was to leave the Catholic schools for the public schools. He talked about how people laughed at him when he said that, that they didn’t understand how hard it could possibly be to take a job that paid better with better benefits. Also, public schoolteachers have a very protective union. They are much safer than other types of teachers.
But he had to give up some major things. He could no longer talk about faith, nor could he hug kids if he felt they needed it. He said it was always awkward to know a kid needed the hug and it would be better if he did it, but to not be able to do that. He talked about how sometimes kids need love more than they need curriculum, and when he was in Catholic schools, he felt empowered to take a break when the student needed it.
But he had to put his own family first.